This is NOT easy.

Hello Everyone,

Thank you for coming back to read about the struggle I have been facing as I try to quit cigarettes. Every second of everyday, I think about how great it would be to go back in time and tell my 17 year old self NOT to light that cigarette, but I know that’s not happening. The first time I was handed a cigarette I was a freshman in highschool. I was uneasy about taking my first drag because I knew the cause and effects they brought to the human body but just like everyone else, I wanted to “fit in” so I tried one. At first, I won’t lie I got light headed and wanted to vomit which resulted in me never wanting another one again. Junior year something changed, I hung out with the wrong crowd and with no fault of my own got myself addicted to cigarettes.

Five years later, here I am trying to figure out how I am possibly going to kick this habit. I have decided that the first step is for me to be honest with you all and most importantly myself. The first question I knew I needed to ask myself was “Lizzy, how many cigarettes do you smoke in a day?” and my answer honestly repulses me; a pack a day. I just can’t believe that at the age of 22 I am smoking a pack every day. The problem is I never took a second to think about it, never thought about what I am doing to my body. I can’t begin to tell you the amount of times my friends who do not smoke or family members that do not smoke ask me “why lizzy? what do you get out of it? it’s so gross” yeah of course it is, I know everything that is in a cigarette but yet I make the choice to smoke it and the reason is, because these cigarettes have me hooked.

Cigarettes have a power of me that I can’t seem to shake off. As I am writing this right now, I’m craving one so badly. I know it sounds dramatic because I’m not talking about being addicted to drugs, alcohol, etc. but an addiction is an addiction (which can be seen as an opinion) At this point in my life I know it is time to make healthier choices and I know I may sound like a broken record but it starts here with ending this ugly habit I have developed.

GOAL FOR THE WEEK:

• My goal for this week is going to cut back each day, so instead of the whole pack I will only smoke half the pack which may not seem like progress but trust me, it is.

I would appreciate if anyone has any questions about this, I am very open to discuss it and if anyone has any suggestions/feedback for me during this process I would love more than anything to hear them. 

Thank you! 🙂